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The Big Decision
1837, in what would later become Yellowstone National Park.
"The slothful man roasteth not that which he took in hunting: but the substance of a diligent man is precious."
~ Proverbs 12:27 ~
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no one in camp spoke of it, it was never far from Emma's mind. Josiah, Will, and
Grandpap had shot enough Buffalo to keep everyone busy, so it didn't leave much energy
to talk of the future while they fleshed hides, cut meat to dry and turn into pemmican.
Josiah seemed grateful for the fact no one brought the subject up. He remained contentedly
quiet, throwing himself into his work instead of the conversation he must've known
Emma was eager to begin.
At night, everyone fell into their beds, exhausted from the labor. In the morning,
they fleshed and stretched buffalo skins, until the men had amassed a rather good-sized
collection. It was nothing grand or large, but still, Josiah expressed surprise at
the amount of God's blessing. These were no beaver pelts, but buffalo robes could
turn a tidy profit for a man like Josiah.
But Josiah was unwilling to slay the buffalo simply for their hides. When the carcasses
began to outnumber the usefulness of simply the skins, he put a halt to the hunting.
Others relied on the plentifulness of the buffalo, a fact everyone was reminded of
when a Crow tribe made camp nearby. Josiah made no effort to stop the elderly and
women who went out to gather the remnants of the carcasses he and Will and Grandpap
had shot, only too glad that nothing would be wasted.
The Crows were uneasy at Grandpap and Cora's presence, for the Blackfoot and the
Crows were long-standing enemies. Neither side did anything to antagonize the other,
each keeping a careful distance and a wary truce. In between the silent hostilities
stood Josiah, speaking for himself and the others, and putting the Crows more at
ease. Very little trading was done, for everyone wanted to save their goods for the
rendezvous that would happen in July. Besides, the Crows and the two Blackfoot in
question, didn't seem eager to come into contact with each other unless absolutely
necessary.
With all the excitement of the Indians and the Buffalo, it was easy not to speak
of the future-- easy, that is, for everyone but Emma. For several minutes every night,
she lay awake dreaming of it, praying for it, planning for it. Then, Emma would fall
asleep, too tired to think any further.
Not until some time after Josiah and Emma's talk, did the subject of leaving
come up once more. There was little left to do now, but to wait for the remainder
of the last freshly killed meat and the hides to dry, and of course, to rest. It
was a calm, peaceful day, with everyone lounging about the fire. George rested under
the tree with Mary, following her progress as she slowly read from his law book.
Everyone and everything was at rest, until Mary suddenly stopped and asked George
a question that had Josiah sitting up, wide awake and listening intently.
"When you leave after the rendezvous, George, can I come with you?"
George's brows shot up in surprise, and he quickly glanced at Josiah in obvious embarrassment.
"You're speaking nonsense, Mary. Please continue reading."
"But George --"
"No buts, and no arguing. Finish your lesson, or we'll stop early today."
Mary frowned. "Can't I come with you, George?"
With a frustrated groan, George wearily rubbed his eyes. "No, you can't come.
You'll live with your parents."
"Then can we all come with you?"
"School is definitely over for today," said George, setting aside the heavy
book. He folded his arms, and looked at Mary with a mixture of amusement and sadness.
"Why all this talk of leaving?" he asked. "Don't you want to stay
in the mountains like your father?"
"I want to go with you," said Mary, her face earnest and sincere. "Please,
George, I want to come."
"That's enough," said George, hushing Mary before the girl could speak
any further. "I don't want to hear any more nonsense out of you. Go sit with
your pa, so I can sleep."
Mary sighed deeply, and watched as George reclined his head against the tree and
shut his eyes.
"Are you still there?" he asked after several moments.
"I will be quiet," said Mary.
A frown formed on George's mouth but he said nothing.
Josiah looked thoughtful as he lay back down. He turned his head to look at Emma,
and she smiled hopefully.
"I reckon you've been patient long enough, Emma. Go on and speak yer mind."
He sounded reluctant, but at the same time, resigned, as though he knew this conversation
had to come. He folded his arms beneath his head, and stared at her expectantly.
Emma wanted to ask if he were sure, but decided against it. She was doing good to
get this far.
"Mary, come over here with me, would you? Cora, Grandpap-- this involves you
both, so I'd appreciate your opinions."
Cora had to shake Grandpap awake before the old man blinked open his eyes and sat
up. He didn't look as though he understood the quiet buzz of excitement that filled
the camp, but Cora did. The Blackfoot woman sat with a blanket around her shoulders,
her eyes sharp and alert.
Mary dropped onto the buffalo robe beside Emma, her mouth drawn into a wide grin.
"Can I go with George, Ma?"
"No, you're going to stay with us, Little One." Emma touched Mary's hand
as the child sighed in disappointment. "After the rendezvous, Will and George
will go home. You must accept that. It's simply the way things are."
Will leaned forward as if to speak, then shut his mouth and looked at Cora; Cora
took no notice of him whatsoever, her attention fully on Emma and Mary.
"This family has a big decision to make," said Emma, addressing Mary and
Cora and Grandpap, "and I want everyone to think about this very carefully.
Where do you think we should go, and how can we make a living when we get there?"
Emma swallowed hard as she waited for anyone to speak. Anyone at all.
Only Mary jumped at the chance. "I want to live with the white man, Ma. I want
to go with George."
"I know, Mary, but I already told you that isn't possible. Remember? We must
be practical. Since you can't go with George, do you still want to leave?"
Mary didn't hesitate. "Yes, Ma, I do."
Considering Mary's painful history with her people, it was understandable. If things
had gone differently with Josiah in the past, the girl might very well want to stay.
But they hadn't, and Mary wanted to go.
"Are you sure?" Emma asked her soberly.
Mary nodded "yes," very emphatically.
Emma glanced at Josiah. He didn't look surprised, but he didn't look too happy, either.
"I'm knowing where you stand, Emma," he said, pushing himself up to sit
cross-legged on the ground. "But how about you, Ma? Grandpap? Haven't you got
nothing to say about all this?"
Of all the members of her family who could sway the decision in a dramatic way, Emma
knew Cora could. With a lump in her throat, Emma awaited Cora's response.
"Are you willing to leave these mountains, Ma? That's what Emma and Mary are
wanting us to do."
Cora looked at her son evenly. "I know this."
"Well, ain't you going to fight to stay?"
The Blackfoot woman didn't flinch in her answer. "If you wanted to stay, Josiah,
you should not have taken a white woman to wife-- a woman who had no choice. She
wishes to go back to her people. I understand this."
Mary stood up eagerly. "I want to go, too, Pa."
Quickly, Emma tugged Mary down before Josiah directed his displeasure at the child.
Emotions were running high, especially between mother and son, and Emma didn't want
to get caught in the middle-- although that was precisely where she sensed she was
at the moment.
"You brought white trappers into Blackfoot hunting grounds, knowing this would
anger my people. You did not care, and now you can not return. There is nothing left
for you."
"Your people, Ma? What about me? I'm half Blackfoot, too. My life is
in these mountains where I belong, and where my people belong."
Cora harrumphed. "You have never valued your people in the past; it is too late
to begin now." When Josiah's jaw clenched, Cora narrowed her eyes at him. "Do
you ever wonder why I taught Mary English? Or why I gave her a white name?"
Josiah smiled grimly. "You was trying to get back at me fer what I did to her
ma."
"No," said Cora, "I was preparing her to live with the white man,
to become part of their settlements and their way of life."
Josiah was completely silent.
"You were not there to hold Mary, to dry her tears when the others kicked her
because her father was an enemy to the Blackfoot." Cora shook her head unapologetically.
"It was not good for her to stay. I prayed for a miracle, and it came. Emma
came. Your soul was saved, and now Mary can live in peace."
"What kind of peace do you think she'll have in the white man's world, Ma?"
Cora inhaled deeply. "As much peace as you are willing to make for her, my son."
Silence again. The words must have stuck to Josiah for he didn't move, didn't turn
away from Cora's steady gaze.
"I can't, Ma."
"There is no choice, Josiah. You have chosen your path by the decisions you
have already made. You must not be afraid. God will go with you."
"Will you come with me, too?"
"I will."
Emma was surprised to see Josiah relax a little, almost like a child drawing comfort
from its parent's presence. He was a grown man and no child, but still, Emma knew
he drew strength from Cora's promise to go with him. A broad calloused hand rubbed
the knee of Josiah's buckskin trousers. He sat quiet for several moments, before
turning his eyes to Emma. She could see vulnerability there, and apprehension of
the unknown.
Someone cleared their throat, as if to ask permission to speak.
"I realize this is a family discussion," said Will, "but if there
aren't any objections, I'd like to ask Emma if she's thinking of returning to Indiana."
Before answering, Emma thought back to her own fears of what her neighbors would
say about someone like Josiah, and poor little Mary, who came into this world without
married parents. "No, I don't think that would be wise-- not under the circumstances,"
said Emma, unwilling to voice her concerns in front of Mary.
Will turned to glance back at George, who apparently, had never gone to sleep and
had been following the entire conversation.
"When you folks began talking of leaving, George and I discussed our own views
on the matter." Will leaned an elbow against some folded buffalo skins for support.
"As much as I figure you want to go back to where you come from, Emma, George
and I reckon it's not wise to return. Even with Josiah willing to get along with
others, they might not be so willing to get along with him. What George and
I suggest is this," said Will, now addressing Josiah, "go further West.
That's where the future is, that's where this country will be heading. Why, the way
is already opening up, and if we start before everyone else, maybe we can claim some
of that prime land before it's all taken."
"'We'?" Josiah looked at Will skeptically.
"We-- as in you and your family," said Will, dropping back with a chagrined
smile. "Give it some thought, Josiah. Leastways, it's an idea."
Weariness traced itself onto Josiah's face. He didn't look ready for more talk, or
for that matter, more thought. He'd been forced to contemplate the unthinkable, and
understandably, it made him downcast and somewhat dark.
"I'm going hunting," he said, grabbing his flintlock as he got up. Silently,
he stalked out of camp. They didn't need more meat, so it was understood he just
wanted to be alone.
"What about you, Grandpap?" asked Will. "Where do you want to go?"
Grandpap shrugged lightly. "It does not matter. I am old and will die soon."
This prompted a sharp look from Cora. She said nothing, but it was evident she didn't
like hearing her father say such things.
Getting to her feet, Mary moved to sit beside her great-grandfather. "I don't
want you to die," she said softly.
Grandpap patted her head, pulled out his pipe, and seemed content to sit and huff
on his remaining tobacco.
Solitude made Josiah's misery even worse. He wished he had asked Emma to go with
him. Whenever his spirits were low, she often made him feel better.
Emma was like that.
Compounding his loneliness, a bird was singing its heart out for a mate.
That did it. He stopped, turned about, and retraced his steps back. They were probably
still talking about leaving, but in his pain, he didn't care. He just wanted to be
near Emma again. The sky wasn't as blue, or the mountains nearly as inviting, without
her at his side. A warning sounded in the back of his brain, a warning that somewhere
along the way he'd become too needy, too reliant on Emma. His happiness was tied
to hers, and he, the wild son of Hiram Brown.
His pa's memory caused Josiah to frown. If Pa had been there, he would've punished
Josiah for allowing himself to get so hopelessly tangled with Emma. "Never become
so attached to a woman you can't leave her when yer wanting to," had been one
of Pa's favorite sayings.
Maybe it was a sign of weakness that Josiah had tangled himself to the point of not
caring. His mouth stretched into a grin as he thought about Emma. He needed his sunshine,
and if that made him weak in the eyes of his pa, then so be it. At least his old
man was dead and couldn't give him any trouble.
Josiah neared camp, paused as he thought about his father. Hiram Brown had passed
on his hatred to his son, not caring that it isolated Josiah from both sides of his
heritage. If they stayed, Josiah feared the same thing would happen to Mary-- not
belonging anywhere, but always holding a clenched fist against an unforgiving world.
Hiram had never given Josiah the chance to fully adopt the ways of one side or the
other, always goading him to remember that he was nothing but a half-breed. But not
Mary. God help him, Josiah would not let that happen to Mary.
In his deep thought, Josiah didn't notice Emma coming towards him. When he finally
did, he opened an arm to invite her to his side. She readily accepted, stepping into
his embrace as though she had been there all along.
"Are you all right, Josiah? You looked troubled."
He squeezed her gently. "I was just thinking, Em."
"So was I."
"We're leaving," he said, making it real by saying it out loud to his wife.
"I've made up my mind. After the rendezvous, we'll head off to wherever it is
this family thinks best."
"Truly?" asked Emma. "Do you mean that?"
"You should know by now," he said with a tired smile, "I ain't in
the habit of making promises I'm not intending to keep. I should make one provision
to that promise, though: we'll leave, provided I can earn a living wherever it is
we go."
An odd sort of look flitted across Emma's face, one that seemed to dampen her excitement.
"I thought you was wanting us to leave."
"I was... I am." Emma bit her lip. Something about this news bothered her,
and whatever it was, it was beginning to bother him.
"Emma, yer making me uneasy."
She stepped out of his arm, turned to look at him with sober brown eyes. If he didn't
know better, panic lay just beneath her stoic features. It was very unlike her.
"You can't be with child again," he chuckled. "You haven't given birth
to the last one yit."
"Please, don't tease me, Josiah. Not at a time like this."
"At a time like what? Yer not making any sense."
She winced, even though nothing had touched her except his words. For a moment, he
wondered if she had turned yeller, suddenly become afraid of what her own kind would
think of her for having a half-breed husband.
"This is going to make you angry, Josiah. I should have told you sooner, but
there hadn't been any need to before now."
"Tell me what?" he asked.
Reluctance filled her countenance. "How much money do you have?"
The question surprised him. "How is asking that going to make me angry?"
"Please, Josiah, how much?"
He considered the question thoughtfully. "Well, after I trade in the buffaler
robes at rendezvous, it should give us something to leave with. It won't be much,
but then you've probably already guessed I ain't a rich man."
"No, I didn't think you were." Emma adjusted her blanket shawl against
the cool afternoon air. "I'm afraid I've kept a terribly important secret from
you, Josiah."
"How terrible?"
"Terrible enough."
"I'm moving past angry, Emma, and moving on to downright scared. What is it
yer trying to tell me?"
"I buried eight hundred half eagles under our wagon."
"What?" Josiah blinked. Surely, his hearing was going out. He thought Emma
had just said she had half eagles-- five dollar gold coins-- buried under some wagon.
Disbelief turned to concern when she didn't laugh at the joke she had just made.
"Please, Josiah, don't look at me that way."
"You've been doing too much work," he said, touching a hand to her cheek.
"Yer feeling warm."
"I'm standing in the sun, Josiah."
He grabbed her arm, pulled her toward Cora's lodge. "I feared skinning all them
buffaler hides would do you harm, and now yer ailing. Yer needing rest." He
tugged her into the lodge where the others were occupied with their own matters.
With a gentle but deliberate hand, he made Emma sit on some robes.
"Are you very angry with me, Josiah?"
"It's myself I'm angry with," he said, beckoning his ma to leave her work
by the fire and come join them. "It was my fault fer letting you work yerself
ill."
"Are you angry I didn't tell you sooner? About the money?"
He crouched, took her hand and tenderly squeezed her fingers. "Don't give it
any more thought, Em. You'll feel better soon." He looked over his shoulder
as Cora approached. "Ma, Emma's been working too hard; she's talking mighty
strange."
Emma shook her head, insistent that she felt fine. "Pa wanted a good start in
our new country, so he packed half eagles into a wooden chest. It weighed about twenty-two
pounds, but we carried it all the way from Indiana. We lost most of our belongings,
but not that box. Before the Indians attacked, he made me bury it as quickly as I
could." Emma's eyes turned misty, and Josiah knew it pained her to speak of
her pa's death. "In the end, it didn't matter. They killed him, and you took
me. The chest no longer seemed important after that."
The story quieted Josiah. Emma was making too much sense, and her retelling hadn't
sounded as though it came from fatigue or delirium.
"Where was you and yer Pa going, Emma?"
Cora looked at him, and he knew she was surprised he had never thought to ask before
now.
He shrugged. "It never came up." He turned back to Emma. "Where, Em?"
For the second time that day, she looked reluctant to speak.
George, who had been napping, sat up to listen. Will stopped his sewing, Mary perked
up and crawled to Emma, and Grandpap remained dozing with his hands in his lap.
"Pa said we'd remain at a trading post for awhile, then move on into the Pacific
Northwest if things didn't work out." Emma worried her bottom lip.
"Yer pa was wanting to enter the fur trade?" asked Josiah.
"Not exactly." Emma looked at Josiah meekly. "He came as a missionary."
"Who to? The Indians?"
"No, the trappers."
Behind his back, Josiah could hear Will's chuckles.
"Pa said the trappers needed to be reminded that God was in the wilderness,
as well in the cities." Emma sighed heavily, her voice touched with grief. "He
just thought he could do some good, that's all. After Ma went to be with Jesus, and
my beau married my friend instead of me, the years passed until Pa said there wasn't
anything left for us in Indiana. Truth be told, I think he wanted to leave behind
the things that kept reminding him of Ma."
Remembering something Will had said, Josiah looked into his wife's face. "Will
said he and George thought you came from money. Is that true, Emma?"
"I suppose that's true, although I never felt very rich," Emma said modestly.
"And the half eagles? Are they real?"
Emma nodded. "My grandfather was a very wealthy man, so the eight hundred coins
are real."
A whistle came from Will's direction. "That's four thousand dollars in gold.
You're a rich man, Josiah!"
"I wouldn't go that far," Emma smiled for the first time since her confession.
"It's a lot of money, to be sure, but it's only a few thousand."
"That's a whole lot of beaver in one lump sum," said Josiah, sinking onto
the robe in stunned amazement. "I've spent my life trying to get up a fortune
like that." A twinge of bitterness stung his pride. Over the years, he'd earned
plenty trapping beaver, but had never been able to hold on to his earnings for very
long. Gambling, whiskey, and women had been his weakness, as well as his wild friends.
In his lifetime, he had bought an awful lot of whiskey to make his trapper friends
happy.
"That's a decent stake in a new life," said Will. "If you can get
back to where that wagon is, the coin chest is probably still there."
Josiah groaned inwardly. The wagon was waiting for him in Jackson Hole, or at least,
what was left of it after a hard winter. But that wasn't the only thing. Josiah's
friends had wintered close by, and were likely trying their luck around the area.
It was possible they had even pressed into the Yellowstone by now, cursing him out
for not showing up to be their guide as he'd promised the year before.
"Josiah?" Emma touched his hand. "What's wrong?"
"It occurs to me," he grinned darkly, "I've jumped out of the frying
pan, and into the fire."
Emma thought it had been an odd thing to say, especially after finding out he was
four thousand dollars richer than the day before. After lunch, she took him aside
to a quiet area just outside of camp to talk.
"You're angry at me, aren't you," said Emma, choosing to stand instead
of sit.
The flintlock rested in Josiah's arm in the casual manner he had of looking dangerous
and relaxed at the same time. "I ain't angry, Emma. You guessed wrong."
"I wouldn't have to guess at all, if you simply talked to me."
He harrumphed. "Yer a one fer talk. You had all them coins buried away and you
never even told me."
Instead of a biting retort, Emma pressed her lips together. She refused to speak
rashly, for she could never take back the words once they had been spoken. Forgiven,
yes, but nearly impossible to forget.
"After you first found me, what would you have done had I told you about the
money?"
Josiah shrugged. "I'd've dug it up."
"And you would have spent it on your vices. I couldn't trust you, Josiah-- not
like now."
A scowl parted his mouth. "What are you meaning? There wouldn't have been any
place to spend it until rendezvous."
"That's not the point," said Emma, "and you know it."
He sighed wearily. "All right, I ain't disagreeing with you. I would've spent
it on sin if I could've."
"Josiah, I thought you said you weren't angry."
"I ain't."
"Then why are you shouting at me?"
"I ain't shouting."
She inhaled a patient breath. "I didn't tell you about the coins later on, after
you were saved, because I feared it would change you. I love you the way you are."
He darted a quick glance at her, obviously interested in hearing more.
"There's one complaint I have about wealth-- it changes nice people into people
who aren't as likable. Before Pa inherited his fortune, he operated a wheelwright
shop and made a modest living from the sweat of his brow. I was still little when
we became wealthy, but I remember Ma talking to Pa about how some of her friends
were whispering cruel things behind her back, but when they came calling, they gave
her nothing but flattery. Ma had never been an outgoing woman to begin with, and
it all frightened her. For years afterward, she never could trust a compliment without
fearing an ulterior motive."
Josiah frowned. "Ulterior?"
"Another reason than the one they gave," said Emma. "Our dearest friends
did their best to treat us the same, but money did change things between our families."
She stopped, realizing this was probably the most she had ever told Josiah of her
life before him. "I feared what even four thousand dollars might do to you,
so I simply ignored it. I pretended to myself that it didn't exist. Truly, it almost
doesn't for I don't know if the chest is still there. I only know that when you said
we were definitely leaving, I had to tell you my secret."
His brow creased thoughtfully, and he nodded that he understood. "Sorry I shouted
at you, Em. I shouldn't have."
She inspected him carefully. "Something else is bothering you."
"Careful, Em, yer turning into Grandpap; you both think you can read my mind."
"Please, Josiah, talk to me. I want to help."
He looked at her, reached out and drew off her blanket wrap. "You ain't needing
to be modest when it's just me to see you," he said, laying aside his rifle
long enough to spread the blanket in the sunny grass. "Sit down. I can see yer
feet are hurting."
She wanted to deny it, but couldn't. He didn't miss much, not even her sore feet.
Obeying, she sat down, and smiled when he joined her.
"Always my sunshine," he said, brushing away a strand of hair from her
mouth.
"I'll try to be, Josiah."
His smile came easier now. "You don't need to try, Emma, you just are."
He set the rifle across his lap. "My friends are likely in the Yellowstone by
now."
Emma didn't have time to show her shock. Mary came running up to them, a scrap of
paper flapping in the wind.
"See what I wrote!" she cried happily, dropping beside them on the blanket.
When Mary straightened the paper for Josiah, he looked to Emma for help.
"It says, 'Miss Mary Brown,'" read Emma. "Did you write this, Mary?"
The girl nodded enthusiastically. "George held my hand, but I wrote it. He showed
me how to use his quill and ink, Ma. And after this prak-tice, he let me write my
name in his journal." The girl traced a finger over the strokes of her name,
her face aglow with pleasure in her accomplishment.
"Josiah," Emma turned back to her husband, "about your friends--"
"They may be a rowdy lot," he said, interrupting her worry, "but they
won't hurt you. I'll see to it that they don't."
"Actually, I was worrying about what they might do to you."
Josiah looked hurt that she would even think such a thing. "They're my friends,
ain't they? Aside from you and Mary and the people in our camp, they're the best
I've ever had. You ain't having to worry on my account."
Even if those words could convince Emma-- which they couldn't-- she had the strong
suspicion Josiah was trying to convince himself that what he had said was true. He
remained to admire Mary's writing a few moments more, then got up on the excuse the
horses needed to be checked.
Before he left, Josiah paused to look over his rifle. "Things are sure pushing
in around me," he said quietly. "Wish we could stay in these mountains."
Emma didn't know if he intended her to hear him, though he didn't seem to care if
she had or not. He walked away, his feet heavy, his face long.
When Josiah joined everyone for supper, he announced he would take three horses,
and go after the gold.
"Do you feel up to going with me, Emma?" he asked, his mouth working some
buffalo meat as he spoke. "I ain't knowing where to dig."
Emma nodded readily. She had hoped he would ask her to come. "It's not much
of a hole, so you won't have far to dig. I'm afraid I didn't have time to hide the
chest very well."
"I wish I could go with you," said George, leaning forward for more food.
"After two months of camping in the same place, I'm ready for a change of scenery."
"Two months?" Emma looked at him, startled by how much time had gone by
while she hadn't been paying attention. They had been working to dry buffalo meat,
prepare the skins, give George a chance to rest properly. Now the weakest member
of their party wanted to move on.
"According to my journal, it's the end of June," said George, popping a
handful of berries into his mouth that Mary had gathered "just for him."
"That reminds me"-- Josiah gave George a long inquisitive look-- "just
what have you been scratching about in that book, that journal, of yers?"
George shrugged, though it was hardly a casual gesture. Emma saw the trace of nervousness
in his face, and knew he didn't really want to answer the question. "Just some
private thoughts, that's all," he said, hurrying to fill himself with more berries.
Mary beamed at her pa. "George has been writing stories about you, and where
you've been and what you've been doing. They're awfully good, Pa."
"Stories, huh?" Josiah eyed George with suspicion, and the young man shrank
back.
"Mary was supposed to keep it a secret," said George, shooting a reproachful
look at his small friend. "I just did it to keep myself busy and give her a
little entertainment."
"Maybe you could read one of the stories to us sometime," said Emma.
George swallowed hard. "Maybe. Sometime."
Not wanting to press that sometime into now, Emma nudged Josiah and he backed off
from questioning George. Emma didn't fear the stories George had penned, for if he
had been reading them to Mary, they had to be flattering of Josiah.
From Mary's happy smiles, Emma knew she had nothing to be concerned about.
The next morning, Josiah and Emma set out to retrieve her father's coin chest. Every
step of the way, she noticed Josiah looking about for signs of his friends. She tried
to recognize the terrain, for she and Josiah had passed this way before, on their
way to the mountain cabin. To her distress, the landscape looked very different cloaked
in the mantle of late spring, early summer. At last, she resigned to simply following
Josiah's horse and to stop straining so hard to see her surroundings.
They made camp before the sun travelled too far into the horizon, then started off
again before sunrise. Josiah kept asking Emma if he were going too fast, and she
continually assured him that she could keep up. In the intimacy of their bed, he
would rub her back and work out the aches that had accumulated over the day. She
did her very best not to slow their progress. The need to press on, find their treasure,
and get back to the others, weighed heavily in her prayers. Besides the easing of
her aches, she didn't know why she should feel so urgent-- though she had to privately
confess that there would be more safety in numbers, especially where gold was concerned.
They ate dried buffalo jerky, and kept moving, day after day until Josiah announced
they were nearing Jackson Hole.
Of course, Emma didn't recognize it-- she couldn't, with her weak eyesight. Even
when Josiah declared he could see the wagon, she couldn't. Not until they were close,
did Emma recognize her pa's weathered wagon, bleached wood and metal wheel rims scattered
about the ground. A crumbled pile of rocks marked her father's grave, or at least,
where Josiah thought he had buried him. It was hard to tell after so much time had
passed.
"I ain't trying to rush you," said Josiah, as Emma knelt to touch her pa's
grave, "but I'll feel a whole lot easier after we've got that chest safely tied
to our pony."
Emma nodded in understanding. Her grief must wait for later.
Only one side of the wagon still stood, the other side having fallen from its axle
long ago. On her hands and knees, Emma scanned the ground, searching for any familiar
landmarks. It felt surreal to be here, back where her life had changed in such a
dramatic way. Her pa had died here, and here, she had been kidnapped by the Blackfoot.
She tried to recall those days, the panic of hurriedly digging, the numb fear as
her father shouted that the Indians were attacking.
"I don't know," she sighed heavily, secretly wondering what they would
do if they couldn't find the coins. "I can't remember. If only I could remember."
A hand lightly touched her shoulder and she looked back to see Josiah staring off
into the distance.
"Did you hear that?" he asked, his voice pensive and alert. "Thought
it came from behind us, off toward the Yellowstone."
"No, I heard nothing."
"You best keep looking," he said, urging her back to the task at hand.
"Just give me a place to start digging."
"Do you think someone's nearby?"
He grinned sheepishly. "More than likely, I'm just getting a mite jumpy."
Emma pointed out the most likely spot she could, and Josiah started in with a shovel.
The hole came up empty, but on the second try, after just two shovelfuls of dirt,
Josiah's blade struck something wooden.
"I think it's the chest!" Emma cried in relief, as Josiah brushed aside
the dirt. When he lifted out the compact wooden container, she recognized its metal
fittings as commissioned by her father.
Josiah tugged at the heavy lock. "Don't suppose you have the key?"
"Pa had it in his pocket," said Emma, picking the caked dirt from around
the lock's opening. She was about to ask Josiah what he was about to do, when he
nudged her hand aside, grabbed a large rock, and burst open the lock with a powerful
blow.
Josiah threw back the lid, grinning when the gold coins sparkled up at him, winking
and glinting in the sun. He dipped his hand inside, letting the coins fall from his
fingers. "I've never touched so much money in my life," he said, his voice
approaching awe.
Emma grabbed his arm. "Josiah, its only money."
He didn't pay her attention until the second admonition. Then he turned his eyes
on her and she could see the first rush of excitement had passed. "All right,
Emma, I won't let it git to my head. But ain't it a sight? Eight hundred gold half
eagles."
Something sounded in the far distance, and his face turned sober.
"What is it, Josiah?"
He shook his head. "We ain't alone. Whoever it is, ain't close by, but we definitely
ain't alone. Let's git this chest tied to the third pony, and get out of here. You
got yer shotgun?"
Emma brought up her weapon. "I thought they were your friends."
"First off, I ain't knowing if that's them or not, and second, if it is, we're
both knowing they'll be hankering after this gold." Josiah got to his feet,
pulled Emma onto hers, then hefted the heavy chest onto his shoulder.
It didn't take long before they were heading back toward the Yellowstone, toward
the noises Josiah had heard. When night came, they endured a cold camp. In the morning,
they resumed their journey, all the while keeping a close watch over their treasure.
They saw no one, and for all they knew, no one saw them; even so, Josiah couldn't
shake the feeling that more than one someone was there, somewhere in the surrounding
areas, just missing them as Josiah and Emma passed through.
That feeling was soon confirmed.
A few days into their return, Josiah drew the ponies to a sudden stop. He crouched
low on the horse, held a hand up to signal silence. Emma followed his gaze. Just
off on the horizon, she could barely make out several black blurs, moving about as
though they were alive and not stationary trees. From the way Josiah behaved, Emma
knew those blurs weren't animals, but men.
"We'll take a wide berth around them," whispered Josiah, "and continue
on and get back to our camp without them taking notice of us."
"Who are they?" asked Emma.
Josiah half grimaced, half smiled. "They're free trappers."
"Who?" Emma wasn't sure she understood the impact of Josiah's statement,
other than the fact that white men were in the Yellowstone.
Urging the horses along, Josiah muttered beneath his breath. "Those are my friends."
"If riches increase, set not your heart upon them."
~ Psalm 62:10 ~
"For where your treasure is, there will your heart be also."
~ Matthew 6:21 ~